to him? One time
in winter, when my husband and I were still in charge of the Dharma
centre at that time, we held a hugh ceremony for the freeing of birds
at sea. I particularly remembered this because that day was exceptionally
cold. So when they were freed, some of the birds just could not fly
and dropped into the sea, and got drowned. When Guru Lau saw that, he
immediately asked to stop the whole thing. Then he went over to the
owner of the ship and asked him to go speedily to the other shore which
was quite far away. The owner then asked for a big tip for it; and without
any hesitation, Guru Lau fetched out his own purse and gave the money
to the owner, and insisted not to accept back any money from the centre.
After returning home, I saw Guru Lau knelt down in front of his shrine
and confessed to the Buddhas and Dharmapalas. There were tears in his
eyes, and I could sense his sincere sorrow and regret of the whole event.
After that, he told us: "I have heard that hunters are trying hard to
get the birds and sell them to us for money; and then when we have freed
the birds, they will try to catch them again in order to make more money.
So from now on, when you want to free living beings, do not buy any
more birds, buy marine animals instead. This time it was my fault, not
yours; and I have prayed for all the people working for this. I have
also prayed for the birds that have been drowned today. So you two be
rest assured that all the faults and karmic debts will come to me alone,
and I will be fully responsible for it!" Because of the inexperience
of the two of us, we had made a very big mistake, and yet Guru Lau was
so compassionate by taking up the burden upon himself for us. Such is
the temperament and forgiveness of a real practitioner that we should
be ashamed of ourselves!
As far as I know, everyday after his own practice, Guru Lau would say
prayers to the Buddhas wishing for the wisdom and merit, health and
longevity for all his students, and then he will dedicate all his merits
to them. On top of that, he would particularly say out the names of
those students whom he thought have contributed to the Dharma activities,
and the list was usually very long. His care and protection for his
students was well beyond words.
Before Guru Lau went back to Taiwan around mid-1996, he mentioned: "Later
there will be a graduating examination." I was rather puzzled as to
what kind of things will we be examined on: whether it will be the teachings
of the scriptures, or the practices that were being taught? Will we,
Hong Kong disciples, be examined first, or whether the Taiwan Dharma
brothers will be examined first? We just could not guess the mind of
a wise man. The day when Guru Lau went into the hospital, it was the
same time when all of his disciples are entering into the examination
hall. The examination of one's heart, of one's mind and of one's determination.
So many questions to be answered, one after another, like waves in an
ocean. The duration is so long that the examination is still on! I would
hope to knee down at the floor and ask for Guru Lau's forgiveness of
my poor results.
Some disciples have doubts as to why Guru Lau started to build this,
and to build that, and when these are not yet finished, Guru Lau was
gone leaving behind many things for them to complete. But they do not
understand that there is no ending to Dharma activities, for the will
to "Continue with the wisdom-life of Buddhas, and to further ignite
Buddhas' heart-light" will require one's Bodhicitta and responsibility
to continue on life after life, for as long as there are sentient beings
to be saved, there will be Dharma activities to be continued. Does it
mean that we need Guru Lau to carry us through all these things? Why
we cannot try to walk by ourselves? This is exactly the reason why Guru
Lau had to test us, his students!
Then, there are those who questioned why Guru Lau was ill for so long
in hospital. They simply cannot understand what Buddhism is all about.
First of all, there is the Law of Karma - the law of cause and effect.
So even Lord Buddha himself had his headache for three days. Ordinary
people do not understand karma, and so they are rather ignorant of this
law. Furthermore, the sickness of a great practitioner (such as the
great Saint Milarepa in the old days, and such great master as the 16th
Gyalwa Karmapa of contemporary time) cannot be compared to that of an
ordinary person, simply because there are differences in terms of cause
and conditions. So one should not be judgemental about this!
There are other disicples who are perplexed by the lineage problem of
Guru Lau and asked why had not Guru Lau made it clearer before he left?
The secret meaning of a wise man is hard to ..CONTINUE