his own health. This has, indeed, been very influential to my own spiritual upbringing.

With Guru Lau's influence, I decided to become a Buddhist practitioner. On December 9, 1969, I received the Vase Initiation of four-armed Chenresig, and also the three vows of Pratimoksa (personal liberation), Bodhisattva (universal liberation), and Vajrayana (tantra) from Guru Lau, who instructed me to diligently practice the Ngondro, Guru Yoga, and later the Three Roots Sadhanas of Maha-yoga every day. We also do the Sojong, during the dark and full moons of each month, for which Guru Lau himself had complied a book with a preface of Kyabje Dudjom Rinpoche (please refer to p.33). I was then 16 years old.
Later that year my father passed away due to chronic kidney disease. It was very upsetting to me and it struck a heavy blow upon my view of life. This was the first real lesson that I learnt from the Dharma experientially, and not just analytically, realizing that life is impermanent, short and full of sufferings. Furthermore, as what the sutras have always warned us: "Human life is hard to get and we have now got it, the Holy Dharma is hard to hear of and we have now heard of it. If we do not uplift this human body in this lifetime, then in what lifetimes can we be able to uplift this body of ours?" With this, a serious thought of deep renunciation from the world aroused in my heart.
After my father's funeral, I took courage and went to Guru Lau to ask his permission to become a monk, so that I could renounce the mundane world in order to practice the Dharma, and to help him in the spread of Dharma for all sentient beings. Whereupon, Guru Lau instructed me in a very stern voice, saying: "To become a monk is a big deal and is the work of a great human being. So, in the old days, one must first seek permission form one's parents, and then try to let go of everything and leave them behind one's back, never to return. Otherwise, one should not do this without serious consideration. Moreover, now is the Degenerate Time, and a lot of people want to become monks just to earn a living. You do not even have the ability to feed yourself, neither have you finished your learning process, then how can you help me to spread the Dharma? If you really have strong will and courage, you should go for a Ph.D. and then come back to me, so as to show that you indeed have unfailing faith and willpower to help me in propagating the Dharma. If you do not have the knowledge, then it is very easy to turn back and be discouraged and disenchanted. Never again should you talk about trying to become a monk in future!"
Guru Lau further instructed me that genuine renunciation has nothing to do with either a monk or a layman. It should be implanted in one's heart, and that as long as one genuinely practices the Dharma, the path of liberation and enlightenment is guaranteed. This piece of advice - meaningful and heartfelt, full of wisdom and clarity - has shown me the way like a lighthouse in the ocean of darkness and suffering. Since then, I have vowed to study diligently in order to benefit both myself and others, and not to disappoint Guru Lau. His most compassionate face and voice at that time still lingers on in the depaths of my hearts..... Thinking of the past and the present, not daring to look back at the past memories, I am filled with an unbearable grief and sorrow, now that he is no longer with me physically, even though I know he is always with me spiritually!

It was on July 5, 1970 that I received the Secret Initiation of Vajrayogini, the "Eight Great Sins of Vajrayana", together with the "Samayas of the Five Buddha Families", from Guru Lau who encouraged and instructed me to further practice the more advanced teachings of Anu-yoga. In giving instructions on the sadhana practice of the Vajrayogini, Guru Lau specifically gave me the Mang-nga in the practice of Dummo. after a period of practice, with a strict assessment from Guru Lau, he then gave me further instructions on the practices of Tsa, Lung and Thigle. Again, after practicing the Mang-nga of Dummo for quite sometime, together with a further assessment, Guru Lau felt that the time has ripened to teach the Six Yogas.
Guru Lau mentioned that in the sarma tradition, these Six Yogas are of equal importance; yet, in our Nyingma tradition, the Dummo practice is the root and main practice of Tsa, Lung and Thigle, while the other five yogas (including Illusory Body Yoga, Dream Yoga, Clear Light Yoga, ..CONTINUE..